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{Read E-pub} ⚦ Hush, Hush ⚛ A SACRED OATHA FALLEN ANGELA FORBIDDEN LOVERomance was not part of Nora Grey s plan She s never been particularly attracted to the boys at her school, no matter how hard her best friend, Vee, pushes them at her Not until Patch comes along With his easy smile and eyes that seem to see inside her, Patch draws Nora to him against her better judgmentBut after a series of terrifying encounters, Nora s not sure whom to trust Patch seems to be everywhere she is and seems to know about her than her closest friends She can t decide whether she should fall into his arms or run and hide And when she tries to seek some answers, she finds herself near a truth that is way unsettling than anything Patch makes her feelFor she is right in the middle of an ancient battle between the immortal and those that have fallen and, when it comes to choosing sides, the wrong choice will cost Nora her life Read this Don t argue just do it If you don t like me, I ll force myself on you until you do We see this all the time and it s even romanticized Everything from romance novels to sitcoms we see women who aren t interested in a man and we see those men determined to catch her To pursue her, to convince her that she ll like me eventually If I try hard enough, if I harass her long enough she s sure to cave in eventually She can t say no And if she does I ll just assume it s code for tr Read this Don t argue just do it If you don t like me, I ll force myself on you until you do We see this all the time and it s even romanticized Everything from romance novels to sitcoms we see women who aren t interested in a man and we see those men determined to catch her To pursue her, to convince her that she ll like me eventually If I try hard enough, if I harass her long enough she s sure to cave in eventually She can t say no And if she does I ll just assume it s code for try harder Before you read the rest of this review you should really go and read this post and this post on rape culture Please read them, especially if you don t like the word feminist, especially if you think Patch is hot or romantic , and especially if you re thinking about trolling this review Learn what s really acceptable before you bash someone for saying Patch isn t It seemed so often that the only reason Nora was saying no to Patch was so that she could later relent, thereby confirming the fact that when women say no they really mean yes, especially to hot guys they re attracted to and frightened of at the same time.Oh, Ms Fitzpatrick, you re a crafty one But 30 pages of non shittiness at the end of a 400 page book can t redeem all the shittiness from the earlier pages.So, here s what happens in this book.Nora Some creepy transfer student is sexually harassing me.Patch LOL, you know you want me.Nora Fuck off, creep.Elliot Hi Nora, I m the complete opposite of Patch, and I m your only alternative.Nora I better go out with you so I don t think about Patch.Patch Come leave your perfectly normal date and ride on a rollercoaster with me even though you hate me.Nora Okay.New school counsellor Stay away from PatchNora Okay But he s following me anyway so I better confront him.Patch You re so sexy I want to bone you threatens rape Nora Even though you just threatened to rape me, I m going to accept a ride home with you because I m pathetic and I can t call my mum or a cab or catch a bus.Patch Wielding a knife makes me sexy and I m going to almost kiss you.Nora Fuck off You terrify me.Patch Loosen up, babe You love it By the way, I was planning on killing you sexual assault Nora You re right, I do love it facenoms I have to credit Fitzpatrick for her red herrings I wasn t sure who to trust or who the antagonist really was until it was revealed So kudos to her for that And the other thing I have to say is that Fitzpatrick actually seems to have a grasp of the English language It s not her writing technique that I hate, it s the characters and their attitudes and the messages hidden in this book that disgust me Fitzpatrick s clearly written her own teenage fantasy here to be sexually assaulted by a hot guy who s so hot the sexual assault is forgiven because the girl really wants it but just pretends she doesn t to preserve her feminine modesty Although I must remind everyone this book would have had at least five different editors to help her get the basics of grammar and punctuation correct Also she s not afraid of writing fight scenes, unlike several other YA PNR authors who build up and build up and threaten with a war and then fizzle out with nothing.I was beyond prepared for this book I still believe that it should not have been published because it glorifies rape culture, the women are complete bitches and the blokes are complete twats I read this book with my trusty Post It notes beside me and marked the page every time I found something, offensive, stupid, or downright shitty Um if I write something about all of these tags, this review will probably take forever SIGH Okay, I ll do it view spoiler Coach continued, Since the dawn of time, women have been attracted to mates with strong survival skills like intelligence and physical prowess because men with these qualities arelikely to bring home dinner at the end of the day What about lesbians Seriously Do lesbians even exist in this world This is so fucking sexist it makes me want to vomit This is around the time Nora s being openly sexually harassed in the classroom, which pisses me off I won t go into how stupid it is that a sports coach is teaching biology, because there are plenty of other reviews that delve into that yes, some sports teachers do have degrees in biology blah blah blah but it s not very common and this Coach doesn t know anything about reproduction he thinks it means the students have to find a mate RIGHT NOW This entire class revolves around how women want strong men to protect them and bring home the bacon and men want attractive women because ugly women don t get laid Which is pretty funny, because the two biggest slags in my city are both ugly as fuck yet between them have slept with nearly every male I know I also have to mention that if Patch wasn t a hottie patottie, there is no way anyone would support all that sexual harassment to Nora Coach laughs it off because Nora s being a hysterical woman a man showing unwanted sexual attraction is a compliment, and nothing to get all worked up about besides, the point of the class was to teach those strapping young lads when a girl is aroused Stop having a woman s period and suck up the fact that a guy wants to bone you In fact, maybe you should spendtime with him and his unwelcome sexual advances In fact, Nora should tutor Patch Which, actually, is only mentioned oncein the entire novel I was pretty offended by this whole thing As little as I knew about Patch , I sensed his aversion to Vee as if it were concrete enough to touch Patch has never met Vee How can Nora know how he would feel about her best friend Fitzpatrick is very desperately trying to show us here that Nora is the only thing Patch is interested in, eventhan her sexy non virginal best friend.I took a moment to think over his offer I was pretty sure that if I turned Elliot down, Vee would kill me Besides, going out with Elliot seemed like a good way to escape my uncomfortable attraction to Patch So you want to go out with Elliot not because you like him or he s nice or you want to get to know him better, but because your best friend will kill you if you say no and you think it ll help you get over Patch What a bitch Every woman needs to reinvent her sexy side I like that My daughter got implants She said she did it for herself, but what woman gets boobs for herself They are a burden She got the boobs for a man Please excuse me while I let my inner feminist rant and rage about how sexist and demeaning that is Boys like girls who look like girls Fuck you, Vee, and your anti feminist agenda Girls do not need to dress up to impress boys Some boys like other boys Some boys like girls with a bit of meat on them Some boys like petite dark girls while others like Scandinavian s What right have YOU to say what girls should look like My whole young adult life I was taught that the right boys will like you for you, not what you look like What were you taught That spreading your legs is the only way to get a guy s attention I dug in my heels You want to help Stay away from me He brushed a curl off my face Love the hair Love when it s out of control It s like seeing a side of you that needs to come outoften Every time Nora tells him to fuck off, he comes back with a compliment on her physical appearance that s loaded with innuendo This reinforces the rape culture of the book Nora s saying no, but she s being reasonably polite and Patch is ignoring her rejections You sound worked up Really worked up No, that s not it You sound agitated flustered aroused I could feel her eyes widen He kissed you, didn t he What the fuck, Vee First of all, it s none of your business Second of all, kisses do not always lead to arousal Third, it s none of your fucking business Fourth, how the fuck do you tell if someone is aroused over the phone Fifth, it is none of your fucking business And sixth how do you know when your best friend is aroused when she s never been around anyone she s found attractive before Did you two watch porn together one time Do you discuss what makes you horny and how your voices sound when that happens Or are you secretly in love with Nora Every other time I d felt that way, it was because Patch was near.The voice of reason quickly extinguished Patch s involvement If every other time you d felt that way, Patch was involved, how can you logically rule out his involvement How does this literally work How does your brain work, Nora When I d punched myself in the face it hurt But the voice of reason told me my face didn t hurt because I d punched it MALARKY Cause and effect Causation and correlation Fucking dumbass How the hell are you fit for an Ivy league school You re an attractive girl I imagine there must be some interest from the opposite sex This counts as sexual harassment from yet another adult How is this appropriate Yes, I do know who Miss Greene turns out to be but still, if my councillor asked me this question I d put in a formal fucking complaint.Not one part of me felt comfortable with the idea of Vee spending time alone with Jules because he was close friends with Elliot Oh Nora, you are so fucking lucky people don t judge you because of who you hang around with you shallow fucking bitch In fact, I was pretty sure Australia had no diamonds Period BAHAHAHAHAHA And you think you deserve an Ivy league scholarship Deep inside, I didn t believe Patch was the guy behind the ski mask Maybe he had dark, disturbing secrets, but running around in a ski mask wasn t one of them How the fuck do you know You don t know him at all Or maybe it s just because he s so hot that he couldn t possibly attack you except the he does Over and over and over again Nora, you really are fucking stupid We need to ask you both a few questions, he continued He pointed for me to take a seat on my bed, but I shook my head numbly Have you recently broken up with a boyfriend Fuck Why are all the adults so interested in Nora s romantic sex life This is not normal She s sixteen Adults prefer to pretend sixteen year olds don t have sex at all I m sorry, but Elliot A murderer He s, like, the nicest guy I ve ever met And you, Vee Sky, are the most selfish, ignorant, stupid bitchiest dumbass characters I ve ever read in the history of YA.I was feeling a lotrelaxed Patch was warm and solid, and he smelled fantastic Like mint and rich, dark earth Nobody had jumped out at us on the ride home For the first time all day I felt safe.Except that Patch had cornered me in a dark tunnel and was possibly stalking me Maybe not so safe This is an actual quote It s like Nora schizophrenic or something Patch is SO hot, except he might be stalking me and I m not safe and he s SO dangerous, but that just makes him even hotter I have never in my whole life ever known a girl to find a guy she s afraid of attractive When I was in high school, I only offered rides to girls I was interested in Let s carry that a step further What s your relationship with your bio partner outside the classroom Yet another example of all the adults inappropriate interest in Nora s sexuality, sexual history, romantic life and sex life.I could not accept that Patch would hurt Marcie Marcie wasn t the nicest person, and she d acquiredthan a handful of enemies A few of those enemies might be capable of brutality, but Patch wasn t one of them Senseless beating wasn t his style WHAT It s EXACTLY his style He s a creepy stalker who sexually harasses and assaults you and you LIKE it, you crazy bitch and then you get all up on your high horse because you think he s too good to beat someone up YOU DON T EVEN KNOW HIM Sorry, I already have plans Let me change your mind Yet another one of the very numerous examples where a male assumes Nora s very definite no means take me, I m yours He dragged me out the front door and shoved me against the house But he was drunk, right Ladies and gentlefolk Vee Sky Official worst best friend ever Defending a guy she doesn t even know against assaulting her best friend because he s drunk Oh, well that s okay then Maybe if Elliot happened to be driving drunk and killed a toddler and its mother because he ran onto the pavement Vee would forgive him as well, because he has issues and was drunk He leaned close and spoke in confidential tones We get a lot of folks who don t want their extracurricular activities traced, if you know what I mean Yet ANOTHER example of an inappropriate comment made by an adult to a minor What planet is Fitzpatrick from My head spun faster, and I could feel my pulse beating in my temples I d felt this heart pounding panic before I needed my iron pills All this malarky with the iron pills Nora has anaemia She has to take iron pills or she s in danger of, like, fainting or something Prescription iron pills This is complete bullshit I have anaemia I buy my iron tablets off the shelf If I forget to take them, I get a bit lethargic, tired, lose energy and concentration, and as a personal side effect my lips get very dry, broken and unkissable which is why I always use lip balm There is only danger of fainting from low iron if it s chronically low, and Nora doesn t show any other symptoms like shortness of breath, lethargy, chest pain, palpitations, fatigue, or cold skin It s not even essential that I take my iron tablets, and I certainly don t feel the lowness of iron in my blood the way experienced diabetics can feel low blood sugar Anaemia is not going to kill me if I forget to take a couple of tablets it s simply inconvenient Fitzpatrick has given Nora an inconvenient illness in the hopes that it makes her weak in her time of greatest need And it fails And now, just because I m being especially picky iron tablets are best taken with vitamin C which helps to absorb it, not whenever I feel like the iron count in my blood is low Which, by the way, we totally can t tell In the kitchen I saw my bottle of iron pills on the counter, and I immediately went for them, popping the cap and swallowing two with a glass of chocolate milk I stood in place a moment, letting the iron work into my system, feeling my breathing deepen and slow What the fuck Just what the actual fuck You can t feel the iron working its way into your blood Just NO That s NOT how it works You don t feel any different at all This is complete bullshit.Jules was dead Elliot was almost dead Who had killed them Who was left I tried to make sense of what was happening, but all reason had left me Nora, you never had any reason Let s think about this Jules is dead Elliot is almost dead Only Patch and Vee are still wandering the school Logically it s gotta be one of them Unless it was secretly you Why can t you just admit that you think Patch is capable of this violence Look, I know Jules is screwing with you, but really You can t even consider for one moment that maybe Patch, the psycho stalking sexual harasser and assaulter is responsible for such violence Cos the moment you outright accuse him and then find out he s not would be AWESOME.All the knots in my body seemed to come undone My eyes moved out of focus Jules s face was like an Impressionist painting blurred around the edges, lacking detail Blood drained from my head, and I felt myself start to slip off the chair I d felt this way enough times before to know I needed iron Soon That has never happened to me, and I have gone weeks without taking any iron supplements You know what This book makes me want to punch myself in the face Nora should be diabetic, not anaemic One of my best mates is diabetic and when she was learning to read her own body she d do stuff like that on the way to a coma from low blood sugar We made her drink this special glucose syrupy thing and she was fine, BTW We re not horrible friends who just let our best mate go into a coma before our eyes Iron does not magically fix the body when you think you re going to faint I m still in there, a prisoner inside my own body, living every moment of it, he said in a grinding tone Do you know what that feels like Do you he shouted What the heck is up with this dialogue tag Tacked on to the end like a bad apology Although Fitzpatrick had generally a fine technique, I m inclined to believe that came about solely because of the multitude of edits this book would have gone through And they missed this clumsy piece of writing I absolutely hate it when authors write, Blah blah blah, he said Blah blah he shouted It just doesn t work For the love of god, I d prefer a bloody interrobang to an extra dialogue tag This may be one of the only times I have an issue with Fitzpatrick s technique, but it still bothers me hide spoiler I don t really want to try Crescendo but I m going to the only problem I have before reading is that the books go from Hush, Hush to Crescendo to Silence Now, first of all I have no idea why this book is called Hush, Hush Unless it s telling women who complain about unwanted sexual attention to shut up But to get from hushing to silence you need a diminuendo, not a crescendo I suppose once I read it I ll be able to comment on how appropriate the title is.You know what s kept hush hush Sexual assault.I just had an epiphany Maybe Ms Fitzpatrick is really trolling us all because she knows she s written a book about sexual harassment and ironically named it Hush, Hush.No, wait That would be giving hercredit than she deserves NOW WITH SPOILERY RANT BOTTOM Hush, Hush is the story of Nora Grey, an average high school student going about her business as usual until her Biology teacher rearranges the class seating and places her next to the dangerous looking new kid, Patch Cipriano Nora gets a weird feeling from Patch, and things just keep going from bad to worse as Nora becomes convinced that she is being stalked, and may even be the target of murderous intentions Add to the list Nora s strange feelings about t NOW WITH SPOILERY RANT BOTTOM Hush, Hush is the story of Nora Grey, an average high school student going about her business as usual until her Biology teacher rearranges the class seating and places her next to the dangerous looking new kid, Patch Cipriano Nora gets a weird feeling from Patch, and things just keep going from bad to worse as Nora becomes convinced that she is being stalked, and may even be the target of murderous intentions Add to the list Nora s strange feelings about the Archangel ride at the amusement park and her constant near death experiences, and well, Nora s life is becoming anything but average.When I finished reading Hush, Hush, I had to mull it over for awhile I really wasn t sure what to say I am absolutely enthralled by the cover athletic looking, darkly mysterious fallen angel, contorted in mid air in grayscale What s not to like I had to have it because of that cover But I had a sneaking suspicion that a cover that good had to be masking something Yep It s a bright light to dazzle the eyes and make you ahem overlook any faults.It didn t work.Inside was the most confused, schizophrenic piece of writing I ve read in some time Becca Fitzpatrick didn t seem to know quite what she wanted, only that it had to be Ominous and Scary and Dangerous and Titillating, of course, and Mysterious and Sexy So with those buzz words in mind, she threw a bunch of things together and let her narrator, Nora, sort them out Nora, understandably, had some trouble with this, and the result is a thoroughly frustrating heroine who jumps to insane conclusions based on inane evidence one moment, and the next goes blithely along into obvious danger.Patch is intriguing, and perhaps the most consistent character , and I was fully prepared for an anti hero as the hero story I wanted a little boundary pushing and a not entirely likeable or trustworthy male lead who may or may not redeem himself, but who gives you the dangerous and alluring in spades For the most part, Patch wasn t a let down in this regard, and as screwed up as it is to like him, he was the stand out character for me Not to say I didn t have issues with him, too But it wasn t enough Patch s bad boy antics couldn t save this book from itself It was self indulgent, cheesy, melodramatic in the worst sense, and confusing I wanted to like it I loved the fallen angel premise, the idea of an anti hero, and bits and pieces of the writing throughout But Hush, Hush suffered from too many villains and too much shock and awe, and not enough thought and follow through Maybe Fitzpatrick can pull it together for round two, and with some strong convincing by trusted, like minded people, I may be willing to give her another chance never gonna happen But this was a monstrous let down for me You ve been warned We all know how that whole so pretty I just had to thing works out See my guest post on Jo s blog about this And by consistent I mean he was consistently a douche Vee was pretty consistent too, and was a lot of fun, but she started to get annoying and a little strange You re still going to read it, aren t you Damn you, James Porto and your beautiful, beautiful cover HERE THAR BE SPOILERS If you haven t read Hush, Hush and intend to, or if you don t want me dissing the melodrama that is Patch and Nora, look away.NOW Commence rant You already know I had issues with this book I think a lot of people are going to take offense to the idea of Patch as the hero, as teen girls fantasy, just as they did with Edward in Twilight Patch goes beyond the simple term bad boy in that yes, he does actually mean Nora harm Consistently.I m not going to go into that, because frankly, I don t care He can be an anti hero all he wants, whatever If that s where the story s going, fine Most of my issues but not all lie with Nora.Here s the thing Nora is that girl you yell at in the horror movie, the idiot that goes up the stairs instead of out the door, or reaches to turn over the downed bad guy just to make sure We all know that s frustrating, but we ve come to expect it in movies, and that dumb big breasted, scantily clad girl normally gets killed off.Nora is so muchfrustrating than that The many sides of Nora She continually suspects Patch and Elliot, and just about everyone else in this story , and with good reason However, she then continually ignores her instincts and puts herself in danger In fact, she can t seem to agree with herself She will think to herself that Patch is stalking her and trying to kill her, and then within pages think Oh, but he could never hurt me This just cycles and cycles throughout the story.Also throughout the story, Nora makes insane jumps in logic whether they turn out to be true or not, it s not believable when she immediately jumps to the most bizarre conclusions and then acts on them At the same time, she will be directly confronted with some piece of real evidence, something that would make a normal, non fictional person take notice and say something s not right here and she will completely ignore it It s like she s being willfully obtuse.Examples Early ish in the story, Nora hears a voice in her head and thinks Patch has breached normal communication methods and could, at will, speak to me without ever opening his mouth Naturally, she thinks she s delusional Hearing your name and a few inane comments would make one think they are imagining things, and this I could buy Even Nora not being exactly sure what happened and being creeped out I could buy But she proceeds to ask Patch how he s able to speak directly to her mind, making her look like a loon I wouldn t be even all that bothered by this, if it was consistent throughout the story if Nora either consistently thought that she was going crazy because of all the implausible things that are happening, I could buy it if she wanted to prove she wasn t crazy and kept confronting Patch and sleuthing, I could buy it It would be 1 solid choice on Becca Fitzpatrick s part She could be the ultra paranoid girl who thinks she s going crazy and jumps to conclusions about everything Annoying, but doable But to present this as if it s normaland I m out Conversely, near the near the end of the story when the shit s really beginning to go down and nearly everyone has become a villain, Nora and Patch walk out of a movie theater to find that both the tires on the driver s side were flat I can t believe it I said I drove over two nails OO She thinks she s being stalked, she thinks her best friend has been kidnapped by a teenaged murderer named Elliot, and by this point she thinks she s the target of not one but two murderous angels, and yet all she can come up with is that she ran over two nails Come on If Nora will jump to conclusions on the barest of evidence, how in hell does she not comprehend the obvious Throughout the story, Nora thinks everyone s out to get her she s right, but I ll get to that , especially Patch Patch is Ominous, capital O , and yetAnd yet, no matter how much Nora thinks he s badbadbad, she trusts him Why Weirdest of all, when Nora confronts Patch about his intentions, he admits he wanted to kill her her reaction I know Patch could never hurt me and she trusts him implicitly from that point on Really The whole story, you ve suspected him and been insistent that you should stay away on the barest of evidence, but once he s confessed his albeit previous intentions of murder, you trust him Really Her sudden bizarre trust of Patch comes too late for any real belief in their romance Or her sanity.There is no consistency in Nora s thinking I just can t understand why Becca Fitzpatrick couldn t pick one Nora to write and stick with her She could have just always thought she was losing her mind self doubt would have been interesting, and made her root forable If she had just been reckless and always convinced that yes, maybe something is a little off about Patch, but she still found herself attracted to him, it would have been interesting, and could have been used to slowly reveal the truth and up Nora s anxiety If Nora had just been naive and always convinced that everything was fine despite any indicators, it would have built tension But combining it all made Nora seem confused and a little off herself, and made the writing seem schizophrenic Too many villains Fitzpatrick makes the rookie mistake of lack of restraint Nora suspects everyone, and everyone does in fact seem to be a villain This makes the book seem unfocused and sort of cheesy When everyone is under suspicion, and everyone seems to be a bad guy, it makes it seem like no one really is It s like if you use a really great word once or twice it s going to stand out But if every word you use is some great, unusual word, none are going to stand out There s no negative space, no background to make the focal point pop Everywhere Nora turns, someone s trying to kill her It just gets silly after awhile Also, it has the added negative effect of making it hard for Fitzpatrick to top as it were Where does she go from here If there are 4 different people trying to kill Nora in book 1, how many people will there be out for blood in book 2 She didn t leave any room to grow the suspense.Another bad thing about the amount of villains and Nora s instant suspicion and the overall over the top nature of the book was that there was precious little suspense By giving everything away rather freely, Fitzpatrick deprived the reader of the slow build up and the privilege of the mystery we never got to have any suspicions of our own, or choose sides There was too much in the way of ominous overtones, and not enough restraint.On a side note, not that I m calling Vee a villain, but even she became a little weird as the story went on It s one thing to be the wild and crazy girl in the best friends dynamic, but constantly trying to get your best friend alone with a guy who she says makes her uncomfortable, who she believes broke into her house and may be stalking her, and who she knows was a murder suspect is reckless beyond the pale, and shitty, shitty friendship By which I mean she goes from being quirky and funny to a godawful, shitty friend You know, for no other reason than apparently to help lure Nora into bad ridiculous situations Plot device The writing overall I saw glimpses in Fitzpatrick s writing that demonstrated how this could have been a good book She does sexual tension and confrontation scenes fairly well, and there is some good humor Vee in the beginning, at least, before she becomes a really reckless, really bad friend was pretty amusing as the traditional sidekick Patch had great one liners, both funny and smoldering But for all the occasional good, there was quite a bit in the way of bad The dialogue was often stilted and weird The analogies were completely out of left field They were those turns of phrase that you can tell were used because they sounded cool, or because one was needed, but they don t mean anything, or they leave you thinking wtf His eyes looked like they didn t play by the rules What does that even mean What rules do eyes usually play by Does he not blink This is a mild example, but I got sick of making note of them I got this really hit and miss feel about the writing and the language in the book Pieces of literary crap mixed in with the really good bits blended to form a throw it all in and something s bound to work style A total lack of finesse made it hard to want to keep reading and made me feel like if I kept rolling my eyeballs, they were going to roll right out of my head.Rant complete How I Would Have Ended It This post was inspired by the fan tas tic videos over at www.howitshouldhaveended.com Ital i cized text is the orig i nal pub li cized text from the book and is entirely the work of Becca Fitzpatrick.This ren di tion is entirely satire It is not meant to offend and I mean no dis cour tesy I rec og nize that authors put a lot of time and work into their nov els and I am not try ing to dis re spect that Writ ing a novel is hard work and is some thing I have never done How I Would Have Ended It This post was inspired by the fan tas tic videos over at www.howitshouldhaveended.com Ital i cized text is the orig i nal pub li cized text from the book and is entirely the work of Becca Fitzpatrick.This ren di tion is entirely satire It is not meant to offend and I mean no dis cour tesy I rec og nize that authors put a lot of time and work into their nov els and I am not try ing to dis re spect that Writ ing a novel is hard work and is some thing I have never done and I cer tainly don t think I could do a bet ter job I am sim ply, with light hearted inten tion, using humour and imag i na tion to spark book dis cus sion and fun and point out some issues I had with the novel.And lastly, please don t sue me I have no money And I have chil dren to feed And I have a cat to feed as well You wouldn t want a cat to go with out food, would you Also, pretty please with a cherry on top I ll be your friend I was backed up against the counter, my palms dig ging into the edge You re mad because I didn t go to Del phic I raised one shaky shoul der Why Del phic, Patch It s Sun day night Del phic will be clos ing soon Any spe cial rea son you wanted me to drive to a dark, soon to be deserted amuse ment park He walked toward me until he was stand ing close enough that I could see his black eyes beneath his ball cap Dabria told me you have to sac ri fice me to get a human body, I said.Patch was quiet a moment And you think I d go through with it I swal lowed Then it s true Our eyes locked It has to be an inten tional sac ri fice Sim ply killing you won t do it Are you the only per son who can do this to me No, but I m prob a bly the only per son who knows the end result, and the only per son who would attempt it It s the rea son I came to school I had to get close to you I needed you It s the rea son I walked into your life I looked at him for a moment, his intense gaze shoot ing through me as I con sid ered the infor ma tion he d just confirmed Okay, I said, straight en ing up and slip ping out from his over bear ing pres ence to put some space between us Okay Okay, I m out of here You can t go Patch said, his face twist ing into a con fused expression Well, you ve pretty much admit ted that you were going to kill me, in a very per sonal way, might I add I think that jus ti fies a quick and hasty exit, I spat at him, straight en ing my out fit in indig na tion and stand ing up to him withcon fi dence than I felt.Patch splut tered for a moment, blink ing his eyes dis be liev ingly But I wasn t I mean he looked lost for a moment before vis i bly col lect ing him self and slip ping back into his usual, con fi dent demeanorYou want me to come clean, I will I ll tell you every thing Who I am and what I ve done Every last detail I ll dig it all up, but you have to ask You have to want it You can see who I was, or you can see who I am now I m not good, he said, pierc ing me with eyes that absorbed all light but reflected none, but I was worse I arched an eye brow and stared at him in dis be lief Well, I have a dif fer ent plan, Patch Mainly revolv ing around the fact that you pur posely entered my life in order to stalk, harass and mur der me for your nefar i ous schemes So I think this would be a pretty good time for you to quit the mys te ri ous bull shit and be extremely trans par ent about every thing I need to know I mean, you haven t even assured me, at this point, that you re not actu ally going to kill me And I don t mean to harp on this point but that s a pretty impor tant facet of this dis cus sion for me He stalked close to me again, affect ing a brood ing, intense expres sion and caus ing my heart to thud painfully in my chest His boots were flush with the toes of my ten nis shoes I m not going to kill you, Nora I don t kill peo ple who are impor tant to me And you top the list I exerted con sid er able effort to con tain an eye roll, but it slipped through at the last minuteYou re imping ing on my pri vate space, I said, inch ing back ward in dis taste Patch gave a barely there smile Imping ing This isn t the SAT, Nora I pressed my finger tips to his chest He glanced at the spot where we touched and then back up to my eyes If my vocab u lary is caus ing you dis tress, I whis pered huskily, look ing up to him with a wicked smile on my face, then let me express my dis plea sure in the only way you seem to understand Patch s brow creased in con fu sion a moment before my heel came down hard on his instep He hopped back in pain, look ing at me with both hurt and bewil der ment Per sonal bound aries, Patch Respect them when I ask you to See, I have this rule about let ting would be mur der ers within ten feet of my very stab able body Now, tell me Is Dabria going to be com ing after me Patch, mirac u lously less inter ested in encroach ing on my per sonal space, shrugged from where he wasYou could take her, Angel, he said I ve seen both of you in action,he looked down at his injured foot and winked,and my bet s on you You don t need me for thatI don t think I need you for much of any thing, I sneered, turn ing on him and head ing to the doorDoor s locked, he said from behind meAnd we have unfin ished businessLis ten, the only unfin ished busi ness we have is between my knee and your crotch if you come near me again The cell phone in my pocket rang to life In fact, I said as I pulled it out, you re going to go away and I don t ever, EVER want to see your broody, mopey face again You have for ever cured me of bad boys When this is over, it s strictly account ing nerds and bank ing types for me This was absolutely the WORST way to pun ish my mother for her absence, assert my inde pen dence and act out my grief from los ing my father I should have just stolen money from my mother s purse and bought alco hol like a NORMAL teenager I pressed the accept but ton on my cell WhatBabe Vee said We had a bad con nec tion, the crack led of sta tic cut ting across her voice Where are you Where are you Are you still with Elliot and Jules I flat tened a hand against my free ear to hear better I m at school We broke in, she said in a voice that was naughty to per fec tion We want to play hide and seek but don t have enough peo ple for two teams So do you know of a fourth per son who could come play with us An inco her ent voice mum bled in the background Elliot wants me to tell you that if you don t come be his part ner hang on what Vee said into the background.Elliot s voice came on Nora Come play with us Oth er wise, there s a tree in the com mon area with Vee s name on it I groaned in dis be lief and promised myself that if I sur vived this, I d choose friends who weren t com plete and utter dumbassesWho was that Patch asked.I sighed heav ily That was my brain less, drop kick friend phon ing me to pass along the mes sage that Elliot and Jules are going to mur der her vio lently unless I go meet up with them What was that you were say ing about never again see ing my broody, mop ing face Patch asked, his con fi dence returned tri fold and an enor mous grin spread across his face.I resisted the urge to smash my face into the tiled wall repeat edly Oh, shut up and come on I ll prob a bly end up nobly sac ri fic ing myself and sav ing your ass any way, so cut the shit, Patch He unlocked and opened the door, let ting me out ahead of him Still going to set tle for an accoun tant or banker You had bet ter be so damn awe some in bed or I am going to stab you through the eye with your own lit er al ized ego I have ninety nine prob lems, Nora, but per for mance in the sack is NOT one of them The end I read this ON A DARE a double dog one, if you must know And now I want to look it in the eye and ask REALLY, BOOK REALLYBecause it doesn t just cross the line into the uncomfortably creepy territory it takes a cosmic leap over it Hush, Hush may have the dubious distinction of being the worst book I ve ever readI assumed it s a book since that s what you d call a bunch of printed and bound pages, but I m really applying the term book loosely here Yes, I know I m not the intended I read this ON A DARE a double dog one, if you must know And now I want to look it in the eye and ask REALLY, BOOK REALLYBecause it doesn t just cross the line into the uncomfortably creepy territory it takes a cosmic leap over it Hush, Hush may have the dubious distinction of being the worst book I ve ever readI assumed it s a book since that s what you d call a bunch of printed and bound pages, but I m really applying the term book loosely here Yes, I know I m not the intended audience, but should terribly written books that can only aspire to reach the same literary heights as the word of the day toilet paper even HAVE a target audience Yes, I m being harsh But I m also being honest Let me give you a sample of my complaints all of them would be longer than the allowed review space.This book reads as though someone read Twilight, appreciated the obviously marketable and profitable premise, and decided to rewrite it in an edgier way which boiled down to clumsily asking a question,What did Twilight lackand coming up with the answer, Sexual creepiness bordering on sexual harrassment That s it LLLLLLadies Meet Nora Grey, an average high schooler who meets a mysterious boy Patch in biology By the way, my future hypothetical daughter will not be allowed to take high school biology since that s where all potential supernatural creeps appear to lurk, looking for gullible teenage girl prey The boy acts like a total jerk to her, and his sleazy innuendos are alarming and appalling but not charming or witty or sexy The natural things to do would be a tell him off, b tell the school officials, and c call the police if the d bag does not stop harrassing you Instead, Nora Grey decides to madly fall in love with the jerk Dear teenage girls He hates me therefore it means he loves me approach does not work in real life While we re at it PEOPLE WANTING TO KILL YOU IS NOT SEXY EITHER Dear YA authors, please stop perpetuating this idiocy Patch is a fallen angel no spoilers, it was stated on page one or so with a dark past But basically he is an entitled arrogant jerk who appears to take immense pleasure in publicly humiliating Nora, physically forcing himself on her, physically intimidating her, ignoring her wishes, and gloating in his dripping douchebaggery approach while nearly sexually assaulting her in front of the classI make you uneasyhe asks The proper answer would be to scream, YES NOW BACK AWAY But for some inexplicable reason Nora is in love with the creep For some inexplicable reason, his appalling behavior is presented as alluring and seductive For some inexplicable reason, he is presented as a dark and dangerous man of every girl s dream WHYYYYYYYYYYY Oh nevermind, here s the answerYes, actually, he had that effect on me He also had the tendency to wipe all logical thought from my mind My brain couldn t process one logical thoughtThis may explain why we get pages and pages of this incoherent lovestruck bumbling masquerading as a book Mystery solved, my job here is done While I m on the soapbox, let me say this STALKING IS NOT SEXY STALKING IS NOT OKAY STALKING IS NOT LOVE VIOLATING PRIVACY IS NOT LOVE EITHER and should result in a restraining order You see, our wonderful Nora thinks it s perfectly okay to learn about the mysterious new boy by breaking into the students records office to look at the confidential file she does it by calling in a bomb threat which is a awful, b promptly forgotten about and never followed up on , and spying at him at work, snooping for information from his coworkers I hate the message this book is sending I hate punctuation abuse It s innocent, so stop torturing it Please leave the faux dramatic pause ellipses in your fanfiction please Unless you re paid for each ellipsis used End the ellipses abuseWhat is up with the sloppy writing that assumes describing small insignificant and frankly boring details adds anything to the story Why am I subjected to the endless details of what exactly the characters are ordering in a Mexican restaurant, what the specials are, and how long it takes a waitress to bring the order Why should I care Why do I need to know the details of the bra design that the girls are shopping for How exactly does that enrich the story Please stop the filler It s awful Hey, what with not having the slightest trust in the readers ability to figure things out What s with the dropping of anvil sized hints every few pages What happened to simple foreshadowing Patch s identity, the villain s identity, Nora s identity we can figure it out without the author SCREAMING hints into our faces Really Trust me But in the end, despite the awfulness, I cannot be upset at Nora mainly because I m really worried about that girl s health Here s why My heart fumbled a beat My heartbeat turned erratic, and I told myself to pull it together My heart did an unexpected flip, startled by his bizarrely attractive smileNora, you know what you need instead of a creepy boyfriend A cardiology consult Your heart sounds unhealthy to me Terrible book with lackluster annoying characters, ridiculous plot, and bad writing, but with overabundance of creepiness 1 star because that s the lowest rating I can give Reading it was a miserable experience 4.0 rating on Goodreads Really Sometimes I really wonder whether I m reading the same book as everyone else