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This is a type of book that can t be judged or evaluated because it is about the author s personal life.How can one evaluate the life of another and give stars through it This is one of the topics the author deals with in this volume As she realized that in writing her life she ended up selling herself and putting not only her but her family in spotlight.In this volume the depression of Kabi appears with all its force again Her anxiety about thinking about the future and her career leads to a deep state of depression resulting in some major decisions.One is that she decides to go back to live in her parents house and after a while she realizes that this shouldn t be cause for shame Another decision is to look for a clinic and stay for a while there.The times spent in the clinic are difficult and troubled, but she learns important things in this place.Anyway I really liked this volume and I don t know if there will be a continuation, but if there is one I would definitely like to read Kabi inspires me and brings me hope that it is possible to live, to survive even when everything inside you seems to tell you otherwise.PS The oneshot within this volume was great too, bringing interesting and critical reflection on society and its judgments.
(((FREE PDF))) ↠ My Solo Exchange Diary Vol. 2 ⇳ The sequel series to the award winning My Lesbian Experience with Loneliness Living on her own is harder than Nagata Kabi expected Building relationships is difficult too, but with a new friendship to cultivate and a new perspective on her family, she s doing her best to open up and become a warm, compassionate person This entry is frustrating than the previous two as the author mostly sets aside LGBTQ issues and focuses on the anxiety and depression which eventually result in her voluntary hospitalization following a strong bout of substance abuse.Outside forces seem to be affecting the narrative as the author recounts how her family reacts to their depictions in the early volumes and realizes she is under some pressure to bring the series to a conclusion for the publisher Some of the developments felt like backtracking to mend hurt feelings or exaggeration of progress for a happy ending.Finally, there is the intriguing inclusion of one of the author s works of fiction It was interesting to see the change of her art style to portray a sci fi dystopia and to pick up on themes from her life evident in the story That said, it wasn t a particularly good story. I really respect Nagata Kabi for putting herself out there and talking so openly about her anxiety and depression I understand that mental illness is a painful thing to live with, especially in a place like Japan where seeking therapy is still fairly frowned upon But I still found it hard to read about this woman doing little than running circles in her own little pit of despair I hope she can get out someday and find happiness, but I honestly have my doubts. Progress, as they say, is a spiral.I am deeply grateful to these books and their honesty about the mundane nature of recovery, the struggle within success, and how sometimes all the love we crave is already present in our lives we only need to become the version of ourselves who is ready to experience it I won t be surprised if this volume gets lower ratings than the first two The cultural dissonance about the treatment of mental health and the importance of family probably won t go over easily if a reader is unfamiliar with Japanese attitudes I am familiar with them, but it was still stressful to read at times Moreover, there s less the air of triumph about this volume setbacks than victories, confusion than conclusions The theme of this book, in contrast, is perseverance And maybe that doesn t make for as enthralling a read something Nagata Kabi addresses textually in the second epilogue But it s still my life And that s why I m so grateful for it, for the fact the books conclude on that note of still needing to strive, still getting knocked down and back up again So many stories about mental health and self acceptance give the reader a pat narrative arc, but that s not life Stories of success are essential they give us hope But life which My Solo Exchange Diary tries to honestly record can be complicated, and with so many of us struggling there is the need for empathy and recognition just as much as hope These journeys to happiness are long and many people think a lack of concrete achievement means failure, day after day after day But Nagata is so very good at sketching a picture, out of dismissable and even miserable details, that convalesces into a portrait of self forgiveness Even unhappiness and setbacks can teach us, is the moral of these painful episodes, and I d rather that message be broadcast out into the world the message that struggle is not failure You are worth fighting for, even when you feel like you can t win for losing Five stars, and not because of love for previous volumes or because I admire the author s overall effort This book earns every one of them. The third entry in a series that started with My Lesbian Experience with Loneliness There the author opened up about dealing with severe mental issues for her entire life, which led her to seek her first intimate human contact with a prostitute In this third volume, I m saddened to see that Nagata has only gone further down the spiral Her worsening depression doesn t allow her to enjoy or feel accomplishment for anything, and the few people that get her out of the house do it sparingly, though sweetly, and as if for charity Otherwise, she can t handle the loneliness of living on her own, despite being able to pay the rent through her books, and decides to move back with her parents Although Nagata maligned her parents in a general I hate my life and you created it kind of way, she comes to appreciate how much they put up with her The author visits a therapist semi regularly, as well as some other dubious practices Nothing seems to be helping significantly There s virtually at least a panel in every page in which the author cries for some reason She reaches her thirties during this time, and she implies a couple of times that she believes her life has effectively ended.Spoilers for the biggest stuff that happens in this volume Nagata falls into view spoiler drinking heavily just to tolerate being awake, and at night relies on sleeping pills to fall asleep She begins to wet the bed regularly I can t remember if before or shortly after those events, she also attempts to kill herself through a pill overdose Her parents decide to send her to the loony bin for a while A couple of weeks after, Nagata cuts herself so the doctor will return her to her parents, in the kind of backwards logic that comes with psychotic depression Once she s back home she invites her parents on a trip The whole thing ends in a hopeful note, but it felt tacked on to me, put there because, as she shows in the manga itself, she checked the reviews for the previous volume in this series and wasn t happy with many reactions hide spoiler I think her openness and vulnerability is very brave, but this is not something I want to reread or a series I can continue reading It reminds me too much of how I feel at my worst and just makes me feel scared for my future. If you relate to her struggle, it makes you think about your own wrongdoings that you didn t notice while in a bad emotional state I relate too much to the endless cycles of depression and anxiety, that it makes me a little scared tbh Her realizations about her family also hit too close to home for me I felt the same way not too long ago about what she felt about her mom about my dad Almost made me cry but I had to stop because I already had a headache. A powerfully honest book about mental illness depression Nagata really opens up and gives us a glimpse into how debilitating parts of her life can be I hope that she finds the stability and care that she needs.