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~Free Epub ☦ Send Me a Sign ⚔ Mia is always looking for signs A sign that she should get serious with her soccer captain boyfriend A sign that she ll get the grades to make it into an Ivy league school One sign she didn t expect to look for was Will I survive cancer It s a question her friends would never understand, prompting Mia to keep her illness a secret The only one who knows is her lifelong best friend, Gyver, who is poised to be so much Mia is determined to survive, but when you have so much going your way, there is so much to lose From debut author Tiffany Schmidt comes a heart wrenching and ultimately uplifting story of one girl s search for signs of life in the face of death There s no time wasted, tossing us right into Mia s world, getting to know her wonderful, sort of perfect life Really, her life is as good as it gets for a teenage girl She s got a dedicated group of friends, known as the Calendar Girls each one gets a season, rather than just one measly birthday Summer Girl Mia does great in school, has a good relationship with her parents, and there s the yummy boy that s really into her, Ryan Not to mention, she s got Gyver, the sweet next door neighb There s no time wasted, tossing us right into Mia s world, getting to know her wonderful, sort of perfect life Really, her life is as good as it gets for a teenage girl She s got a dedicated group of friends, known as the Calendar Girls each one gets a season, rather than just one measly birthday Summer Girl Mia does great in school, has a good relationship with her parents, and there s the yummy boy that s really into her, Ryan Not to mention, she s got Gyver, the sweet next door neighbor she s grown up with Oh, and a cute little kitty, Jinx note to authors do you want me to turn to mush cat owner relationships.But then she s diagnosed with leukemia, and all signs point to keeping it a secret while Mia deals with treatments The only person who knows is Gyver, and she s glad she has him He s there for her during her first rounds of treatments, unflinching, remaining a solid rock for her to lean on But when it comes time to return to the real world, Mia s still not ready for anyone to know She d rather keep it a secret, to allow herself anormal experience in high school, and in her personal life This way, there s no interruption with her good times with her friends, and this new boy Ryan won t just dump her for someone who isn t, you know, sick.But person by person, the secret comes out and that s the best part Mia tells Ryan, and he has a better reaction than she imagined Mia s convinced her cancer is the end of the world for her, socially and personally, but the only person who thinks that way is her Which is understandable it s a huge thing to deal with, and sometimes friends like hers don t always have your back We can totally understand why Mia s so bent on keeping the secret, even if we know it d be better if she just tells them It s kind of like a horror movie, in that you re trying to get the person not to go through the door Except in this case, we want her to do it Mia learns everything the hard way After all, it s hard for someone to keep a secret that big, and still be a girl on top.Without a doubt, the strength of this book is Tiffany Schmidt s writing Through it, Mia and her world come to life I cared about her so much, based on even the littlest interactions between her and her cat But it s not just that all of those little pet peeves we form when we re reading a lot of books SEND ME A SIGN didn t trip any of mine Her parents aren t just there, they re involved Not just because Mia is sick, but because that s how they are Her Dad is a logic and list sort of guy, paying attention to facts and collecting all of the data he can That s how he relates to Mia, and to the world Mia s Mom takes a different approach, and there is a lot of tension that builds between the two of them because of it The building frustration between them is palpable and believable, never once over the top If you re a teenager, or were a teenager, and you had those fights with your Mom, you ll understand it She isn t cruel, by any means, but she just doesn t get it.I had a hard time with the Calendar Girls Maybe it s because I ve never known a group of high school kids to actually have a name for their group of friends It sounds very middle school, and following that, their behavior seemed equally cheesy at one point, someone mentioned how Gyver is such a LONER, and I wondered if it was a typo from loser, but it was stated again later The fights they had were immature, and it really did feel like it belonged back in middle school, rather than in high school It felt a little off to me, and maybe it s because I wasn t in the world of high school cheerleading, but the friends reactions didn t seem real to me Maybe that s how it is, but with friendships that go so far back The other part was that none of them really stuck out to me, and I think that s a symptom of having a cliquish group in any book, and even if real life Their relationships blend, and most of the time, they ll become the same person, with minor differences There are always types in any group, and outside of those types it s hard to peg a solid personality on any of them But I don t think this is a weakness of Tiffany Schmidt s writing, necessarily I think that s just how it works.The romance is carefully woven, and over, completely realistic We have Gyver and Mia, who have been friends since the days of sand and juice boxes They took two different directions, socially, but still make time for each other Then we have Ryan and Mia, who are in the same social circle, and it makes sense Ryan s a nice guy, and he s the clean cut, nice boyfriend a lot of girls would dream about having in high school But Mia isn t really sure that he d be serious enough with her but when she tells him about her cancer, he steps it up a notch and shows how much he cares, and how much he ll do for her And while some of us might be rooting for Gyver, or rooting for Ryan, neither one of them is a bad choice Ryan treats Mia really well, he s there for her, and he even encourages her to be honest when the time comes Gyver makes her mix CDs and connects with her in his own way But it looks like Gyver s dating Meagan, and Mia doesn t think she can compete with that.Really, I loved that the romance didn t revolve around two people, with one person being the clear winner with no chance for the other That s not how it is in real life all the time, and with all of theimportant decisions has to make, it wouldn t be fair for her to linger over something silly.In the end, you will remember Mia Moore You ll remember her struggle to keep her identity, and you ll relate to the choices she makes You ll remember feeling scared for her when she s neutropenic, and sad for her when she feels alone If you re a sap like me, you might cry when view spoiler the cat dies, WAAAAH hide spoiler You ll find yourself really caring about Mia, about her family, and about her relationships Mia is a character I ll remember for a long time, and Tiffany Schmidt is absolutely on my list of authors to watch I approached SEND ME A SIGN with the knowledge that many readers had high expectations for this book, though I didn t really have any myself What I got out of my reading experience was that this debut novel squandered a good opportunity to discuss cancer in eye opening ways and opted instead to be a perfectly, irritatingly run of the mill YA contemporary novel about high school relationship drama.SEND ME A SIGN could ve used Mia s cancer diagnosis as an opportunity to reflect on people s belief I approached SEND ME A SIGN with the knowledge that many readers had high expectations for this book, though I didn t really have any myself What I got out of my reading experience was that this debut novel squandered a good opportunity to discuss cancer in eye opening ways and opted instead to be a perfectly, irritatingly run of the mill YA contemporary novel about high school relationship drama.SEND ME A SIGN could ve used Mia s cancer diagnosis as an opportunity to reflect on people s belief in superstitions What is the significance of signs to people Why do people often look for signs in the course of their life, and how is the significance they place in signs affected in light of a life changing event Instead, Mia s superstitions are a mere gimmick that fails to mask the truth about this book that it is a totally average, totally unoriginal cancer tale featuring a hopelessly selfish heroine who never realizes the extent of her privilege and concocts wildly immature justifications for the predicaments she gets herself into with her own narrow thinking.This book wants us to sympathize or empathize with Mia, the popular, she s got it all cheerleader whose life unravels from something out of her control but Mia is no Sam from Lauren Oliver s Before I Fall or Parker from Courtney Summers Cracked Up to Be Sam and Parker s are bitchy and self centered, but we readers could see their flaws and see how they can become better people.Mia, however, is oh, how can I put this delicately inexcusably, horrifically, disappointingly f g selfish I could see the series of decisions she made to end up the way she did, but I wasn t sympathetic at all to her self imposed plight, and I didn t believe at any point in the novel that Mia s character was redeemable.Actually, part of me sees this as a problem with the form of the fiction novel The very fact that Mia refused to give up the appearance of perfection even when inside she was falling apart was easy for her friends and us readers to see Mia succeeded much less than she thought she did at fooling her friends, and of course, with this book being written in first person POV, we weren t fooled at all This premature understanding on our part of Mia s Tragic Flaw, however, meant that the majority of this overly long novel was just a cycle of the same events and situations over and over again Mia has an opportunity to tell the truth, something prevents her from doing so, and she gets into even deeper shit It s painfully repetitive with no point and adds nothing to the story s character or plot development Most of the story s major conflicts were set early on, in the first few chapters, and then the characters don t arrive at any sort of growth until the last few chapters Maybe it s just me, but I didn t need to read nearly 400 pages for the MC to learn something I already knew she had to learn by Chapter 3.SEND ME A SIGN suffers from a na ve belief that its deep and sensitive subject cancer will automatically evoke readers sympathies and keep readers invested in the story Uh, no That s Fiction Writing 101 even the most intriguing premise can be made into a cure for insomnia by shoddy storytelling What SEND ME A SIGN really is is a basic high school friendship love triangle tale with I m different because I m about cancer written on its figurative forehead There is a maybe maybe not jock love interest a group of cheerleaders who try and fail to bethan just an easily forgotten group of privileged white teenage girls and oh, yes, apparently there is some dude named Gyver who s supposedly the love interest but kind of just flits in and out of the pages and conveniently forgives Mia for her appallingly selfish behavior because he s been in love with her his whole life Like we haven t read that before Honestly, if Gyver were half the guy this story wants him to be, he would have never put up with so much of Mia s crap It s pure wish fulfillment, is Gyver And that is how this book s romance failed for me as well, adding yet another black mark against it if you didn t do the cancer storyline well, couldn t you at least have done the romance a little better The following quote, which appears at 77% in my e galley, kind of sums up all of what s wrong with this book for me Cancer had cost so much friendships, grades, cheerleading, my whole sense of who I was I needed to know would I beat this and have time to fix things No, Mia, your cancer didn t ruin your life Your self centered personality did And this book isn t a cancer book it s about the relationship drama of a protagonist who by the way has cancer You get no pity from me Initial reaction This is probably one of the few books on its subject matter that, generally, I was unimpressed with the presentation for I don t know I ll have to think over it with the possibility of upping my rating, but I wasn t taken with it.Full review All right, I ll bite in discussing this book with a short and sweet review I didn t like Send Me A Sign very much at all There were very few redeeming factors about it and the protagonist came across to me as a self centered brat who Initial reaction This is probably one of the few books on its subject matter that, generally, I was unimpressed with the presentation for I don t know I ll have to think over it with the possibility of upping my rating, but I wasn t taken with it.Full review All right, I ll bite in discussing this book with a short and sweet review I didn t like Send Me A Sign very much at all There were very few redeeming factors about it and the protagonist came across to me as a self centered brat whose friends came across with the same kind of bratty qualities either that or they were too perfect This book wasn t as potent as I think it aimed to be, with meandering passages and feeling so overly long that after a point, I just had a difficult time caring one way or the other.That said, this book is one with a central focus on revealing Mia s diagnosis with cancer to her friends, family, people around her But Mia s characters was extremely self absorbed and I personally found it hard to sympathize with her, as well as found the relationships in the novel to be a bit contrived and outside the point of reality I m not going so far as to say the narrative was pretentious, because it does depict the reality of Mia going through procedure after procedure to fight against her diagnosis, and also her helplessness and isolation through it all The high school aspects focus were a bit pretentious though, at least with the constant media dropping which shows it age in some respects I understand having some music, movie, TV and other media references here and there, but in this for me it was too much without necessarily having that much intimacy.I don t judge Mia for not wanting to tell her friends about the diagnosis I can understand that and the reluctance I justcouldn t wrap my head around the fact that she was so self centered most of the time Her friend Guyver is the only person she tells anything about the diagnosis, though she keeps that relationship under wraps from her friends as well I found that I couldn t really connect to the other characters for the fact that they were all stereotypical cookie cutter without much flesh Not to mention HIGHLY judgmental And Mia s parents don t really feel that realistic either On one hand, I understood Mia s mother s denial, but on the other hand, for me it didn t resonate as realistic.Things hit the fan when Mia who takes far longer than the narrative could adequately support reveals her diagnosis not necessarily by choice in some measures I wasn t surprised at the fallout, but I didn t take it to be Mia s cancer diagnosis to be the cause, but rather Mia s neglect and denial as the narrative went on.Coupled with the meandering love triangle and taxing drama, after a point, I was just reading to see what happened in the end I didn t care about it, I didn t feel it hit home with any kind of palpable resonation or changes Mia was not the kind of protagonist whom you could see for flaws and redemption the way you could for the protagonists of Lauren Oliver s If I Fall or even Courtney Summers Cracked Up to Be I didn t feel the intimacy in the perspective it just felt like one long slog that could ve been significantly edited down and hadpotency and potential.In the end, not one of the best books on its subject matter I ve picked up I think it had some moments that were sweet and realistic, but it was drowned out by the meandering plot and underdeveloped, unlikable characters.Overall score 1.5 5 starsNote I received this as an ARC from NetGalley, from the publisher Walker Childrens Considering I cried my way through this book, fell in love with The Boy, and my heart is STILL aching in a good wayI think I loved this book Final review end Me A Sign is one of those extremely rare books that took me beyond the mere act of reading a story, and actually propelled me into the story itself, until I felt like I was living the events taking place I clicked immediately with Mia who of us hasn t searched for a sign to tell us which direction to go, how to make the right decis Considering I cried my way through this book, fell in love with The Boy, and my heart is STILL aching in a good wayI think I loved this book Final review end Me A Sign is one of those extremely rare books that took me beyond the mere act of reading a story, and actually propelled me into the story itself, until I felt like I was living the events taking place I clicked immediately with Mia who of us hasn t searched for a sign to tell us which direction to go, how to make the right decision My heart went out to Mia as she struggled to understand what having cancer would mean to her, her family, and her friends, and ultimately, decided to keep the truth from those most important to her Mia was a sympathetic character who made some mistakes throughout Send Me a Sign, but I adored her, as well as this heart felt, heart wrenching, poignant story about life, death, and courage Author Tiffany Schmidt brings Mia and her family to life with clarity and a wonderfully told story From Mia s fact obsessed father to her image obsessed mother, and the boy next door who cares so unabashedly for her, and the friends who love, but don t understand her, I found something to like in most of the characters I enjoyed the evolution of Mia s relationships with her parents, and loved watching her become her OWN person I didn t always understand their reactions and motivations, but what I DID love was the way Mia interacted differently with each of them She played so many roles, and while most of them were genuine daughter, friend, girlfriend, the one that stood out most to me was her relationship with Gyver Of all the signs Mia searched so ardently for, she missed every single one pointing her to this sweet, steadfast, loyal boy, choosing instead to pursue a relationship with her crush, Ryan Ryan turned out to be an amazing supporting character, but it was painful, watching his devotion to Mia, and the ramifications of how their relationship was tested by Mia s illness I kept praying for Mia to make the right decisions in several aspects, but especially when it came to Ryan and Gyver Both boys had a lot to offer her, and both had a lot to teach her about life, and about how to be truly brave I won t say how it all turned out, but I WILL say I shed a lot of tears, some sad and some happy Send Me a Sign is a spectacular, heart breaking look at what cancer means and does to people It s a story about family coming together It s a story about friendships being broken, and repaired It s a story about choosing life over death, hope over fear, love over isolation It s a story I will never, ever forget I really, really enjoyed this book and I generally avoid 1 cancer books and 2 books about popular girls especially from new to me authors this is a debut And Send Me a Sign has both But, it was incredibly fresh and an emotional novel that surprised me Mia is a super popular cheerleader with a perfect life seriously in the first chapter, I was all, I m not sure I can spend 300 pages with a super popular cheerleader, those girls hated me in high school Her friends has the perfect s I really, really enjoyed this book and I generally avoid 1 cancer books and 2 books about popular girls especially from new to me authors this is a debut And Send Me a Sign has both But, it was incredibly fresh and an emotional novel that surprised me Mia is a super popular cheerleader with a perfect life seriously in the first chapter, I was all, I m not sure I can spend 300 pages with a super popular cheerleader, those girls hated me in high school Her friends has the perfect summer before their senior year planned Except Mia is diagnosed with leukemia But, she doesn t tell anyone That is, she doesn t tell anyone except her neighbor Gyver yes, like MacGyver , who s a childhood friend He s there for her during her stay in the hospital and is all around wonderful After she returns home following a month in the hospital and having successfully concealed her illness egged on by her mother in a sadly realistic case of WTF denial , she continues her deception, while being pursued by The Jock aka Ryan There are lots of complications in their relationship, and even though Ryan wasn t the guy that I wanted for Mia obviously her sweetie pie musician neighbor Gyver is the boy you ve got to root for , I LOVED that Ryan was never portrayed as a bad guy for the sake of Gyver being the boy for Mia Does that make sense Both boys reactions to dealing with Mia s illness rang authentic and it made me care about each of them I also was very intrigued by the parental dynamics in SMaS Mia s mother becomes obsessed with hiding her illness, pretending that everything is normal, while her father is obsessed with accumulating as much knowledge about her disease as possible Both reactions felt realistic see, there s a theme here Mia s mother really bothered me, to be honest, because she s so obsessed with her daughter being popular and having an outwardly perfect life and this just feels yucky to me note my aforementioned discomfort with the notion of popularity , but at the same time, it also seemed real Anyway I do wish that the friendships in SMaS had been exploredOr maybe not , but perhaps in a way that I ended up beingsympathetic to Mia s circle of popular circle friends In the end, I still was uncomfortable with them, as much as I d grown to like and care about Mia view spoiler There was also a scene late in the book in which Mia s cat dies she has to have him put to sleep and it s very, very sad, but in the back of my mind, I felt slightly manipulated I imagine this isof a Sarah Problem than it would be for anyone else, but I am sensitive about using animal death as a metaphor or to propel a plot forward it s a thing with me I ended up in tears, but it wasbecause I don t handle that particular element well ever, than because of the actual book Does that make sense hide spoiler Well, I meant to write a quick reaction to this so I could jog my memory when I write my real review, but this got a bit rambling Definitely a recommended read if you avoid cancer illness books, SMaS may be one to check out anyway, as it s different and very, very well done The payoff for all the characters is hard earned, and not just because of Mia s illness, and I LOVED that Send Me a Sign is a really good book that held my interest Mia, the main character who is diagnosed with leukemia, decides to keep it from her friends This turns out to be a decision that adversely affects her and her friends relationships when they view spoiler find out she didn t share her illness with them The repercussions from that decision angered me to think that people could be so incredibly cruel, even in the face of potential death.Mia is always looking for signs to help her make Send Me a Sign is a really good book that held my interest Mia, the main character who is diagnosed with leukemia, decides to keep it from her friends This turns out to be a decision that adversely affects her and her friends relationships when they view spoiler find out she didn t share her illness with them The repercussions from that decision angered me to think that people could be so incredibly cruel, even in the face of potential death.Mia is always looking for signs to help her make decisions on various aspects of her life When she sees what she believes to be a sign, she will base her decision on what the sign has shown her to do.Another main character is Gyver who, as it turns out, actually feelsfor her than just friendship however, Mia is definitely slow to realize his feelings He is the type of person who everyone would like to have as a friend, but even he gets caught up in her decisions to share or not share things with different people He is one of the most adversely affected people in the story hide spoiler This book is a definitely must read Although it is a cancer book, the author is able to teach us about friendships and how our decisions affect others I HATE MIA.I HATE MIA S MOTHER.I HATE MIA S FRIENDS.I HATE THE FUCKING JOCK.I LOVE GYVER.THE END. I am not a fan of cancer books, and neither is Mia So when she s diagnosed with leukemia, she hides it She doesn t want to be cancer girl She wants to get through that first round of chemo then be her normal, happy, perfectionist self, surrounded by the girls she s been friends with and cheerleaders with forever But it s not that easy and can t be that easy She s told one person her diagnosis Gyver, the boy who has been her best friend and neighbor since the beginning of time The boy who I am not a fan of cancer books, and neither is Mia So when she s diagnosed with leukemia, she hides it She doesn t want to be cancer girl She wants to get through that first round of chemo then be her normal, happy, perfectionist self, surrounded by the girls she s been friends with and cheerleaders with forever But it s not that easy and can t be that easy She s told one person her diagnosis Gyver, the boy who has been her best friend and neighbor since the beginning of time The boy who has always been a steady person for her The only person she feels won t make her cancer girl.In the midst of chemo rounds which happen during the summer Mia is able to live somewhat normally She s getting signs from Ryan, one of the popular guys at school, that he s interested in her Seriously interested in her The thing is, she s not ready for him She doesn t necessarily see him as the kind of guy she wants to date He s got a little bit of a reputation for not being serious with any girl, and Mia s just not sure whether she has feelings for him like he does for her It sthan that though she doesn t want to have to tell him about her cancer She doesn t want to be the person who scares him away She doesn t want to be that person, period.Schmidt s debut worked for me because this book tackles cancer and the cancer genre of books with the approach I take in reading them That is, it pushes against them, challenges them, doesn t want to acknowledge what it is they are or they are not Mia is a strong girl tackling something that is literally attacking from the inside out But rather than allow herself to be pitied, to be doted upon, she wants to keep it a secret She doesn t want people to be scared or worried because she herself doesn t want to be scared or worried When her parents begin to make hernervous about what cancer means for her, she further pushes herself away from the diagnosis and from the reality of her physical illness She strives to operate as though it s not a part of her view spoiler Really, Mia doesn t feel at all like a person any because of this Because she doesn t feel like she can tell people She s scared to admit that she s weak That she has no control That she is bound to a body that is not well For a girl who has had it all, this is the worst possible thing But the truth is, Mia pulls away from herself so much so that she loses respect for the person she is I sort of found it all summed up in a comment her father makes to her, and it s one of those lines that stuck with me throughout the book Sick or not, you re a person to be respected It s at that moment in the story when Mia realizes her value, her worth, and that she has to let people in so she can respect herself hide spoiler The romantic tension in this book was palpable and sweet and hit all of the right notes view spoiler And it s impossible not to note the incredible metaphor here between what goes on with Gyver and Mia s relationship and what goes on in Ryan and Mia s relationship and what s going on in Mia s own relationship with herself and her illness Whereas Gyver has been the one there for her constantly, the steady, the strong, the healthy part of who she is, Mia has to struggle with what it is Ryan may or may not be to her And while she s straight with Ryan that she doesn t want to be in a relationship with him she understands he s a part of her life, even if it s for a small while because he won t let go of her The way the two boys handle her illness and seeing her so vulnerable post treatment and the way she lets them in to even be with her during that only reinforces who these boys are to her hide spoiler SEND ME A SIGN is about that choice of who you let in and who you do not let in And it s not necessarily about a right choice or a wrong choice but about choice all together view spoiler But in the end, it s about having the willingness to go with what your heart knows is true And the payoff in this book was worth the entire journey to get there Gyver was such a good guy, such a realistic guy who loved Mia fiercely for who she was and had since, well, forever She d just never paid attention to the signs hide spoiler I loved the weaving of superstition and signs into the book and felt like they really fleshed out the whole of who Mia was while giving readers the opportunity to be surprised right along with her Never once did this feel like one of those stories where cancer makes someone smarter,insightful,worldly orexperienced Mia was a teenage girl and remained a teenage girl Her problems were the problems of high school girls That s not to belittle the weight of what cancer is in a story but rather to maybe give it MORE weight Even though at times it got a little bit hard to separate out Mia s three best girl friends, it didn t matter a whole lot in the end I do wish there had been a littleup front I wanted a bitof getting to know Mia and her ways earlier in the story, prior to the diagnosis However, how much she grew as a character over the course of the story was fantastic I loved getting to know the boys and finding both of them to be realistic and flawed and frustrating and loveable This book will be a go to for those who love Jenny Han s writing, and without doubt, those who were fans of her Summer series will want to read this book Full review here This and other reviews can be found on The Psychotic Nerd ACTUAL RATING 3.5 StarsMY THOUGHTSThis is a difficult book to review I was very much invested in this book, but the characters in the book are not really likable and made some dumb decisions Yet, they are all dealing with a difficult situation.This book is about Mia She and her friends have plans for the summer Except Mia has been getting large bruises lately and a visit to the doctor tells her that Mia has leukemia Instead of getti This and other reviews can be found on The Psychotic Nerd ACTUAL RATING 3.5 StarsMY THOUGHTSThis is a difficult book to review I was very much invested in this book, but the characters in the book are not really likable and made some dumb decisions Yet, they are all dealing with a difficult situation.This book is about Mia She and her friends have plans for the summer Except Mia has been getting large bruises lately and a visit to the doctor tells her that Mia has leukemia Instead of getting a tan this summer, she will be spending time in a hospital getting treatments Mia does not want to tell her friends what is happening She tells them that she is spending the summer in Connecticut, but when school starts and she is still sick, she keeps piling on the lies All the while, Ryan, the boy she occasionally hooked up with, wants to be boyfriend and girlfriend Then there s Gyver, her neighbor and one of the few people who know her secret and who she has grown closer to during her treatments.This book did keep me interested throughout the book in such a way that I did not want to put it down Part of this was hope that Mia will see this through and hope that she will finally tell everyone what was happening Mia keeping her cancer a secret was a big problem of mine I really wanted her to tell everyone because I knew that the longer she went without telling, the worse the outcome would be Mia bottling up her secret was a stupid decision and it frustrated me Part of my frustration was that Mia seemed to think that it was her choice to do this when in fact her mother was to blame Mia s mother was passive aggressive throughout the book, she would say what she thought Mia should do and Mia felt like she could not disagree with her mother It was her mother s idea to not tell Mia s friends and when time went by and Mia wanted to tell her friends, her mother would convince her once again to not tell them.Even though I had trouble with Mia s character, I place most of my blame of her unlikable character to her mother who influenced so much of Mia s behavior This is why this book is complicated to review because even though many of the characters were unlikable, I can t really judge them because they are also in a really tough situation Mia has her mother influencing her while Mia is also trying to keep up normal pretenses and undergo treatments She also has to deal with the idea that she might not survive this She keeps most of this bottled up because she does not have friends, for the most part, to rely on She has Gyver and, later, Ryan, but she can t even always depend on them.Which brings me to Mia s friends view spoiler I wish I could say that when they found out about Mia that they were supportive of Mia, but they weren t When her best friend learns she drops Mia as a friend Great friend, right She treats Mia terribly after that in such a way that I couldn t really understand how they could ve have been friends in the first place This is where the unlikable and character morals come in again I can understand that her friends are hurt that Mia told others before them and that backing away was their own way of coping with the fact that Mia might die, but there are ways to be much better friends I won t excuse their behavior, at all, but this is such a difficult situation and none of the characters really knew how to react to this kind of trauma hide spoiler There is also a slight love triangle in this book This was odd to me at first because I don t typically see love triangles in contemporary YA, but this book was published during the heyday of love triangles There was not as much of a focus on romance in this book per se because Mia is having enough trouble as is, but she does struggle with some feelings What I did like is that both guys were there for Mia and tried to help her out Neither one was perfect, but everyone in this book and in real life have their faults IN CONCLUSION Overall, even though I struggled with some of the characters, I did like the fact that it portrayed people having faults and trying to help understand the difficult situation they are in Many of the characters, in fact, grew and changed throughout the book I did think this was a great book even though it deals with tough subjects This is the first book I read by this author and I may look into her newer titles someday